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For The Greater Freedom

It’s just dawned on me that I’m actually limiting my independent travel. I’ve realised that independent trips out have been too controlled by my choice of equipment to hand. Recently I’ve felt so happy with being able to walk a bit, and thus proud of this ability, that I’ve been using my rollator as much as possible. However on reflection of this when travelling solo I now realise that by using the rollator I’m actually reducing my freedom. I can cover a much further distance in the wheelchair. And so I think that now the novelty and perhaps the self-proving stage has passed, I can get on with using what works best in what situation. It’s quite a minefield to process…so I’m currently awake in the middle of the night needing to clarify things and create clear waters.

When travelling on my own and relying on public transport the wheelchair enables me to wander a few miles and also catch the commercial bus – which in turn means I can be spontaneous with when and where I go. It means that I can get to a bus stop and feel one of the masses…and preferably move to a regular seat in order to face forwards. When being taken out in the car and accompanied, the rollator provides the ideal apparatus for walking with someone, having an eye level experience and with easier access to buildings; blending in to the crowd and having the safety of someone being able to move the car to pick me up.

Is this feeling like a step backwards? Perhaps so however if I’m to maximise my benefits in life then I need to focus on looking at the situation from the aspect of greater freedom and independence – and this means that I can go out more. I’ve actually realised that since using the rollator and travelling independently I’ve only gone out three times (by community bus) – twice to go directly to an office to volunteer and the other time was yesterday to get to my dentist appointment. With my brain processing all sort of activities in town and preparing for an appointment I found this experience to have been slightly limiting. Deep down I knew that being in the wheelchair will have improved my trip. Yes, sure, with the rollator I was standing up and able to take my time however the wheelchair does provide me with a more comfortable experience overall. Which in turn gives me more freedom, more independence, greater distances…and therefore more accessibility.

It seems that there is always more to learn about having such a variable disease. There is a lot of safety to take on board in order to keep my health at optimum levels. Changes can occur at almost any moment – reminding me that life is always changing, whatever our situations and capabilities, and whatever our choices. My advice to myself is to accept the modes of mobility transport with flexibility and focus on the objective. So as I process this I hope to see the wider opportunities grow.

shoe wheelI’m still doing well on the Wahls Protocol; my training programme continues to work for me and my muscles gaining strength; my relaxation techniques being just that; my cooking skills increasing as I experiment with baking options and gain confidence. My overall happiness is glowing and growing. Also as a couple, our lives are changing so much – for the better. We went out cycling at the weekend, and with the exception of the biggest hill, I realised that I was grinning for the whole trip…the enormity of happiness was far beyond my expectations. I’m very much enjoying sharing my journey with people – sharing this good news is such an energy magnet for everyone. Thank you for being part of my happiness and success.


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Who’s On Stage?

So, I’ve just been listening and reading a bit from Tanya Geisler. One part was…what person do you want to be? The other part was…start starring your role.

I want to feel comfy and happy with my health – to stop receiving diagnoses and degenerating. That will be sooo wonderful. To be able to put my health to one side a bit and to be able to have inner freedom to live comfortably. To let go of fear for my future and trust that I will cope with each progression. Hmmm it’s a big ask.


The second part is an interesting thought, especially if I place myself back within my acting days – an interesting angle for me to think about. I’m to put on my acting mind and realise that I’m the starring role and to bring my character alive. The task is to carry out a life of a person whom lives with and overcomes these health hurdles. Also to feel internal acceptance, to have fun and believe in life. Maybe the Stanislavski Method is worth a try…however is acting the way to live?

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A Change Of Tune

It’s been a while since my last blog entry and whilst that time has been surfing by I have been feeling better and better.

I’ve started reading an intro to the Alexander Technique however only a few pages and I am already thinking a bit more about posture and how my different muscles are working and being utilised.

So, after my awaking experience that I wrote about in my last blog I have come to discover so much joy. It seems that what I naturally discovered was when in a peaceful space, to review useful stages of your past whilst staying in the present. This exercise can guide us onwards.

One thing that is standing out to me is that when I get a pain I then acknowledge it and relax. The result is that I still have pain however I am easing my muscles and my mind in my responses. My nutritional supplement intake is going well and I believe that by taking the copper to ease the absorption of the zinc this then works as a team. Certainly my supplement intake is keeping things balanced. Having sorted out the garden here I am turning to other forms of physical exercise by this week starting back on the stationary bicycle. I seem to keep busy with every day jobs.

I’ve started to feel I’ve a clearer thought process and my memory is still varied however I’m relaxed about this. This all makes for a happier mind and soul…and body.

So, recently I turned into another decade of my life and had an amazingly lovely birthday. What’s more I actually feel younger than I have done in about twenty years. Having gone through some very low patches in my mind this year I feel so appreciative to have this good time…for however long it lasts. Yes, I feel human!


Last week was a ground breaking moment for me…I got the buses into a town where I had a meeting with my last voluntary place of work. I’m returning there again, after a four year break. In fact I even trained the manager to set up a social network site and have been invited to their Christmas party next week. My sensory processing has vastly improved whilst I’ve been practising the techniques taught to me at the start of the year. So this means I can now tolerate being around people and noise/movement etc…which of course raises the happiness levels. Anyways…after I went to the voluntary centre I then went to my partner’s place of work and then out to a busy venue for an after work Christmas meal. Lots of people and noise and fun. Success! It was a great experience for myself and for my ever supportive partner. And I felt fine the next day…and five days later am still feeling good.

So I wish you lots of what I’m having so that you also get to change your life and view things with benefit…whatever your need or desire.

Long may we learn from our health…listening to our internal messages and taking peaceful moments to absorb the wonders of how we can improve ourselves. Be yourself and you will be eternally happy.