I’ve been wondering, for a while now, what to entitle this blog. I want to summarise myself being rebuilt, reprogrammed, rediscovered. Perhaps like a new town being created brick by brick.
So…I’ve been busy with the training programme which has had to change equipment due to my improved health. Yes the wheelchair accessible medical cycle machine kept needing to cool down so I knew it was time to change. Albeit with a proud smile that my fitness and strength is improving more and more. We now have a treadmill which provides me with safe side bars for learning how to walk. My pelvis has started to adjust to this new way of moving, along with my legs building up their muscles for the weight bearing stuff. I also have started cycling out in the real world…quiet lanes and off road. The latter was taking my MS symptoms out of their comfort zone, along with my sensory processing too. However this was fun and really began to help me become distracted from fear of a new unknown life. Yep…as weird as this may sound to some, to others it may make sense. I’ve spent nearly all of my life with medical issues and am fortunate for this change…however long it will last. I still use my wheelchair for going out – for safety, distance and whilst having to process all sorts. I recently purchased a rollator, after tons of research for aesthetic and practical reasons. So far I’ve used it twice.
The food situation has been a pain in the arse for me and my IBS has been challenged so much due to many new food alternatives. My IBS had been increasing in symptoms over the years and then it improved when I went on the Wahls Protocol. Then something was consumed which knocked my digestive system…my ultra sensitive gut started a ropey journey. I tried a low-FODMAP diet for the recommended six weeks which helped. Although my taste buds and enjoyment for food had a different view. And now…I’m back on the extra diet and this time eliminating almond milk too. I do have peaks and troughs with attitude to tolerating the absent tastes…I’m human. Anyways…today I’m fine so we’ll move on now!
My weight loss has been an interesting journey…a subject of which I have not really thought about until spring time this year when I began to change shape. With the results of double diet, I’m frequently in the charity shops rebuilding a wardrobe in a smaller size. It’s so weird looking in the mirror and learning to recognise my [new] self, however it is a lovely bonus on top of the long list of wonderful changes.
Wow…life is becoming life…a new one that feels so so foreign to me – overwhelming and also hugely fantastic! I’ve just started volunteering out in the real world, away from virtual work. It’s great. I feel like I am living in a surreal world. Perhaps a movie can be made…any takers?!!
I love this photo and it says so much about how I feel…as I start to socialise, feel free, awaken and feel ready to enjoy this new life which is the best present to ever ever have.