I’ve been having some good times recently whereby I’ve had some different thoughts. Better thoughts. More positive thoughts.
Prompted by a question asked on Twitter about peoples instinctive thoughts of what they feel causes MS…I had some thoughts.
So having answered with my thoughts that it’s a nutritional deficiency plus a weakened immune system, thus giving stresses to the body and causing a dis-ease. Whilst waking up in bed this morning I thought about this some more. I then had a feeling of awakened insight into how my body got caught up in this. To spare you of the details it’s suffice to say that after some typical teenage situations and times, I had some traumatic environmental stresses and also some anesthetics during operations causing body stresses. Both sets of operations were challenging and slow to repair, plus some more traumatic stress and grieving. To be honest as a person in their late teens I turned to drinking alcohol to deal with all this strain on my body. So whilst I required nutrients I was in fact depleting myself of any that I had. I decided to increase my self-pressure to complete my studies despite the health trap I was in. This all happened within three years – which is rather intense when I look at it now! It’s just one of those circumstantial things.
Everyone with MS, I believe, will have a story of when their body found the battle increasing beyond the ‘elastic limit’. So…what I have realised today, from deep within, is that I really need to be gentle on myself. By realising that my circumstantial stresses weakened my body, plus my sensory processing disorder as a child contributing, I need and want to really feel the realisation that by relaxing and accepting weird things as just that etc – I have a chance to vastly improve my lifestyle and my attitudes. This has been demonstrated to me through having such health challenges. Sort of a catch 22…which now I can spin on it’s axis and see how much I can improve.
Is it too late? That’s a matter of belief. Sometimes I think yes and yet my foundation belief is that my body as yelling out to me to stop and pay attention – so maybe now is a good time and perhaps rebuild what I can.
So, what about all the other people with MS? Does this mean that people are getting far too caught up in challenges which cause stresses on our bodies…our brains then our bodies? Are we missing something crucial like noticing our body needs? I reckon perhaps so. If we tune into our human workings more then perhaps we will see what needs attention and how. Analogy time…this will be short…”you’ve a car that has some issues. These issues get ignored. Things get worse and other things start going wrong. The wiring gets worn out and needs repairing. You ignore this too. So eventually the car is far from reliable. In fact the car becomes a problem. You take it to the mechanics…they say what is wrong. You think great.” Here’s where the analogy differs, as with a car you have a choice to fix it or scrap it and replace it. Of course you only have one human body and mind…so the moral of the story is to keep an eye on yourself, listen to yourself and you will reap the benefits.
Hindsight vs youth – When I found out about having glandular fever (after my second lot of ops) I realised that I’ll have to avoid alcohol. This was challenging however I did my best…aged 19 and living away from the family home. My diet was lacking imagination – an age thing. It’s strange that MS mainly affects people when they are in their young years. I wonder if this is when we have yet to learn to be responsible to our bodies.
So my conclusion is that I believe that I have a choice to act now. A bit like climate change in fact! If I choose to carry on how I’ve tended to live…then the future now, from this awareness, appears a little scary. However if I really make a conscious effort and focus to go easy on myself and let my body get what it needs to try to heal…then I have chances. And chances, my friend, are worth a lot to me.
A chance is an opportunity
A chance is a light on
A chance is a possibility
A chance is worth taking
A chance…once again